Tom sawyer

I discovered the power of independence and freedom once I had my daughter, Ava Preslie in September of 2013. My life is continually getting better. Of course, the fight for a better life for my daughter and I has not been an easy road. I suffered a great deal since pregnancy and the struggle continues on with ongoing court. What a headache! Why do people always want to beat you down when you finally decide to stand up for yourself?

   The first hearing did not go in my favor. I felt vulnerable after I left the courthouse. My ex made me feel inadequate. He made me feel unloved and unworthy. He made me feel that I was nothing more than a girl who was being paid to watch his child. I lost it. I had no rights. I felt I had nothing at all. I was back at square one after I had regained my confidence from him. I let my emotions get the best of me and it showed once I got the decision in the mail. He was right. He still has the upper hand. The decisions seemed so biased... oh what money can buy...

 
I need to regain my cool. I cannot be so emotional. I have learned that emotion triumphs over truth in court.That doesnt seem right to me, but now I must stay focused on my goal which is to get the best life for Ava possible. I will be investing in a lawyer to represent me in a better light and save me from further stress and headaches. I should start meditating before bed again. It has helped me in the past with clarity. Sometimes I wish I could revert back to childhood when things were so much easier.

  

      

When I was limitless child

My imagination ran wild 

I was a bird, I was a plane

I was far from mundane

I was on the fast lane

On my tricycle, I flew
My tricycle, so shiny, so new
I flew so fast
Never finishing last
Oh how I missed my childhood past

I was anything I wanted to be 
My heart pounding with glee
I was a doctor, a lawyer
a dentist, a big wig employer
I was Tom sawyer...